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[Tobias... doesn't look so good right now. The holidays had been nice, with people around him, but he couldn't help but think about the person who should be around, celebrating the holidays with him.]
[Should be, but isn't. Can't. Even if she came here somehow before -]
[- it'd be weird, knowing she was supposed to be dead.]
[So it's with the Lake of Rage in the background that Tobias looks up at the camera, blinking slowly. Maybe he should have set it to text, but whatever. It's too late now.]
If you... wanted to honor someone who wasn't here... who'd died... how would you do it? They... she was a hero. She died a hero. So I want to do something, but I don't... it's not like I have her ashes with me.
I know... that as long as I'm around, she's... I mean she's dead, but... I still remember her. I still...
... But she's dead, so... does it even matter anymore? Does... it really matter what I feel about... everything? She wasn't the only one who died that day but I... she was... I...
[He drops the 'Gear, his face in his hands, and a big furry brown paw reaches down to shut it off.]
[video]
Date: 2016-01-06 03:01 am (UTC)From:[Not very solemn, perhaps, but it works for his crew.]
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-06 03:47 am (UTC)From:... I don't drink, but... that sounds nice. I... had a lot of good times with her. ... She helped me hold on to being human.
[audio]
Date: 2016-01-06 04:23 am (UTC)From:I'm sure you've already heard a lot of the standard advice, and I'm not going to try to be cute and tell you that everything happens for a reason or that she's in a better place now or whatever, because that doesn't help any. Not in the long run, anyway, because better place or not you probably want her here with you and not...that.
I don't know, you've probably heard the whole thing about living your life in a way they'd want you to. That's probably one of the better bits of advice out there. Honor them in what you do with yourself.
[audio]
Date: 2016-01-06 05:13 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2016-01-06 05:45 am (UTC)From:[...]
Who was she, anyway? To you.
no subject
Date: 2016-01-06 02:47 pm (UTC)From:[He's quiet for a few long moments, and then the sound of something shifting against fur.]
She was my... best friend, I guess. More than that. I.. she cared about me, she fought alongside me for three years - I mean the others did too, but it was always something... more with her. She held on to human things of mine. A photo. Clothes I could use when I morphed human. We... I guess... we were sort of a couple, without really being one. It was like the most screwed up Romeo and Juliet thing, except Romeo was a bird most of the time and Juliet regularly turned into a grizzly bear.
I don't really know how to describe it.
[Feelings are hard.]
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-07 12:44 am (UTC)From:[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-07 01:21 am (UTC)From:[He laughs quietly for a moment.]
Maybe... soda. She liked some of the weird kinds of soda.
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-07 02:15 am (UTC)From:Weird sodas? I've heard of worse tastes. Have you seen any of them in the stores around here, or are they too weird even for the locals?
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-07 07:07 pm (UTC)From:[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-08 01:15 am (UTC)From:video;
Date: 2016-01-08 02:56 am (UTC)From:Before coming here, I'd lost a lot of people I cared about very quickly. Most of my friends died, all within a period of about half an hour or so. I understand what you're going through.
You could light a candle, do something she used to enjoy in her memory. Something like that.
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-08 09:39 pm (UTC)From:voice;
Date: 2016-01-08 09:41 pm (UTC)From:[That... sounds pretty terrible.]
She'd probably go on a shopping spree or something to cheer her up, but I'm kind of useless when it comes to clothes.
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-08 11:17 pm (UTC)From:voice;
Date: 2016-01-09 04:55 am (UTC)From:What about a Pokemon battle in her honor with someone you're close to? It's not the same thing as fighting in a war, but it's the closest this place has.
[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-09 05:10 am (UTC)From:[Definitely an acceptable trick.]
voice;
Date: 2016-01-09 06:03 am (UTC)From:voice;
Date: 2016-01-09 06:38 am (UTC)From:I've done much the same here.
voice;
Date: 2016-01-09 08:06 am (UTC)From:[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-09 09:27 pm (UTC)From:[Voice]
Date: 2016-01-09 10:08 pm (UTC)From:voice;
Date: 2016-01-10 01:27 am (UTC)From:Take... take of yourself, okay, kid?
[There's a reason Greed's not showing his face, and that reason is that this hits way too close to home.]
voice;
Date: 2016-01-10 02:37 am (UTC)From:voice;
Date: 2016-01-10 06:21 am (UTC)From:You'll probably never get over it completely. You'll just... find it easier to deal with it after a while.